Saul was very angry, for this saying displeased him. He said, "They have ascribed to David ten thousands, and to me they have ascribed thousands; what more can he have but the kingdom?"
I Samuel 18:8 NRSV
Up until this point, Saul has loved David. But the bitter seed of jealousy has arisen and now will be planted and grow in Saul.
But who can Saul blame but himself? He has made David his commander over all his army, even above his own relatives. He sends David out to fight for him, but Saul himself remains at home. When David returns victorious, the women sing of both their victories but David is shown in a greater light.
The sad thing is that Saul has finally let someone else help out but can't stand for that other person to receive the glory and honor.
Perhaps that is what Saul's problem is. He is handsome, taller than most other people, a great warrior, and to top it all off he is Israel's first king! But he lacks one important thing: self-confidence.
Where in your life do you desire glory and honor? What will happen with you if someone else receives that glory and honor instead? What more can you have?
God, how can we feel your love and affirmation when it seems everyone else around us is honored and admired? How can we base our self-confidence on you? Amen.
Copyright 2010 Amelia G. Sims